I feel absolutely terrible. First off father said people were judging me behind my back and were giving me dirty looks, THAT MADE ME PARANOID ALL WEEK!! I FINALLY GOT MY CONFIDENCE BACK AFTER TWO YEARS BUT THAT BASTARD HAS TO RUIN EVERYTHING FOR ME!! I called him a bitch under my breath. But that just makes me a son of a bitch… which i think i am now. Due to people judging me ridiculing me. And giving me awful looks. I hate this dimension. I want to leave it and never return. I want to go live in the blacklite lands with the draekons. With people such as my sweetheart who wont judge me left and right. Ugh…
VoidDaviCrystalheartC February 1, 2025 at 11:14 PM
I just remembered from that day that father said he people were looking at HIM funny, and told me that I wasn't to get paranoid. But father, you put that paranoia in me again, ugh
VoidDaviCrystalheartC February 1, 2025 at 11:16 PM
And not only the crap I had to put up with in 2022, and the paranoia was a BIG BUFFALO of an issue, I had to look back a few times because I was trying to be safe
VoidDaviCrystalheartC February 1, 2025 at 11:20 PM
My head is spinning constantly sometimes, father. Do you know WHY I'm like this all of a sudden, because THE FREAKING FEINDS MADE ME THIS WAY!! With the WHOS TYRONE crap and I swear, if I ever have to hear another person say this to me I SWEAR I WILL GIVE THEM A CURSE AND FLIP THEM OFF. Damn cheap bastards
VoidDaviCrystalheartC February 1, 2025 at 11:23 PM
Also I am convinced that those who were of my past still talk about me, can you NOT do that PLEASE YOU DAMN CONIVING, THEIVING AND AWFUL BASTARDOUS FEINDS WHO NEARLY RUINS LITERALLY EVERYTHING EVER!!!
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VoidDaviCrystalheartC April 4, 2025 at 1:04 AM
Recently i have been feeling more in tune with my more feminine side, as it feels more comfortable to me, i have begun cross dressing recently again, and i am not fond of my body hair aswell as my penis, i wish it would go poof and make me not able to look at it at all, especially with the shorts I wear making me look like a big penised perv ugh, but i still say i am male when I truly see myself as someone else entirely, and + I CONSIDER MYSELF MORE FEMININE THAT MASCULIN FUCK MASCULINITY FUCK BRUTES AND FUCK TRANSPHOBIA THEY CAN GO BACK AND STAY IN THE EITHER!! I even loathe when a brute male comes up to me unannounced and flexes their muscles, they are what i call a pain in the ass, and i am not really fond of the whole thing that damn bastard trump is pulling against LGBTQ+ Individuals, and especially i VoidDaviCrystalheartC Bluesoul TimeTitan Sylvania am not going to back down from my claim that TRUMP WILL NOT MAKE AMERICA GRATE HE WILL TEAR UP THIS COUNTRY LIMB FROM LIMB UNLESS WE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! But nonetheless. I am still figuring out myself in deep thoughts and feelings, and I truly and honestly feel that i am more female than male, so therefore i am a still questioning MTF Transgender lesbian,
VoidDaviCrystalheartCApril 5, 2025 at 7:55 PM
AND THE FACT THAT MY BRAIN CANT ALWAYS PROCESS AND RUINS EVERYTHING, I FULLY KNOW NOW THAT EVERYBODY WOULD BE BETTER OF IF I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EXISTED. OR BETTER YET DEAD